Friday, June 5, 2009

Heavy Heart

Sometimes I have moments where I could cry at the drop of a dime.

The last few days have been that way for me.

I can't pinpoint exactly what's bothering me. Maybe it's not just one thing at all.

There is always so much going on in life that sometimes it all hits you at once.

Lael graduates from Kindergarten next week. I can't grasp the idea that I will have an almost 6 year old going into the 1st grade.

Deciding whether or not to have another baby has caused many emotions in me.

Coming to realization that people come in and out of your life and there is nothing you can do to change the situation or the people.

My brother is in the Marines and know that he will soon deploy and there isn't anything I can do to guarantee his safety and I could damn near rip my heart out.

Not knowing whether I'm going to make TSgt makes me question my ability to provide for my family.

Heck, it could very well be that I am just having hormone issues and I'll be fine tomorrow. But for now I just wish I could breath. I wish I could stop my mind from wandering. I wish I could make all my worries vanish.

For now...no such luck.



3 comments:

  1. Understanding, realizing and caring about all of those points means you are already a step ahead of everyone else!

    I know without a doubt that we are stronger than we think we are.

    AND - I can totally relate to the Kindergartner/1st Grade thing. I'm proud and it breaks my heart all at the same time!

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  2. "Coming to realization that people come in and out of your life and there is nothing you can do to change the situation or the people."

    That is so hard. I wish I had words, but I don't. I know how it feels, though. To me, it's one of the saddest feelings.

    I hope you're feeling better today (I know I'm a few days behind this post). And BTW, I LOVE the new banner on this blog!

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  3. I hear you we all have those days and sometimes it just isn't one thing!

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