Because I Saw A Picture of Myself

I had been hesitant about working out since having the baby.

The C-Section really kicked my butt and I didn't want to do too much too fast.

I mean I have been walking since about the second week but I mean really working out.

My husband has been...ahem...encouraging me. But I politely told him to suck it.

Well the other day I was finally uploading old pictures that had been stuck in my camera while my computer was down.

What I saw scared me.  Well one photo in particular.  I mean looking at it I know that Kobi was only 2 weeks old but still.

Pay no attention to my brother and dad the look good.  Look at the whale on the left.  I mean seriously.

I knew going into this pregnancy that I would be the heaviest I've ever been but I had NO IDEA.

I know I know.  You all think I'm crazy, I mean I know I just had him.  And I'm ok with that.  But now I will be going back to work soon and it's time to get off my ass.

Don't get me wrong, I have dropped about 20lbs the last 10 weeks but I would seriously like to drop 25 more. 

So here begins my weight loss journey...again. 

So how did you do it?  How did you loose your pregnancy weight.  Please share.

Getting My Groove Back

You know you have a friend for life when you mention your notebook having a virus and she fixes it for you....for free!

So now that I have my electronic baby back I'm ready to get back in the swing of things.

So much has happened in the last 2 months.  Just when I've settled us into a routine, it's time for that routine to change.

As of today, I will be back at work in 13 days. *SIGH*

I can say I will die if I have to leave my baby. But the truth is I will go to work because it's what I have to do to take care of my family.

As of now, Hubby will stay at home with Kobi.  That makes me a little itchy all over.  It's not that he isn't capable of caring for him but you know.  He's my baby!

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Now that I have my computer back I can share these pictures with you all.

Memorial Day

Baby Brother's Graduation

School Block Party

Gettin' Some Sun

First Swim Meet (She doesn't dive, she runs, in the water)

A New Challenge

So once again we had D for part of the summer. She's been here since June 11th. OMGsh she has been the biggest helper. She quick and willing to damn near breastfeed Kobi.

The problem? I forget about Lael.

I don't mean I forget her but I forget that it was her that watched my tummy grow everyday and all she talked about was being able to help with her brother.

Last night I lay in bed and Lael comes in my room. She starts crying and I had no clue what the problem was.

Apparently I've been overlooking her in the helper area. She told me how I gave her diaper job away to D (one that was hers tje first 3 weeks of his life). She said that I always ask D to help me and never her.

She's right. Just because D is quicker and older doesn't make it right.

D will be going home next week and then it will be Lael and Kobi again. She will be my only helper until Aug.

The challenge: Keeping them both involved without any hurt feelings.

Fun times are ahead.

A New Life

This is my new life. Diapers, spit-up, sleep deprivation. And you know what I wouldn't trade it for the world. Just this morning I fed and burped Kobi and what came next made me cry. He stared up at me. And then his eyes squinted and his mouth curled up to the most beautiful smile I've seen. A simple smile.
For a working outside the home mom, 6 weeks ain't shit. If I didn't take more leave days I would be sitting at work today. The thought makes me feel sick. I have 5 more weeks and I will make the best of them. Right now my laptop has a virus so I can't upload pics but you can find them on my Twitter account. For nowi will be enjoying my new life. I once worried that my heart wouldn't be big enough to make room for another child. I now know that the heart doesn't make room, it simply grows bigger. And my bigger heart is full. For now.

The Last 4 Weeks.....

.....have gone by in a flash.

I've missed you guys. I don't know where to begin.

Well....to back things up a bit.  Me and hubby got up on May 14th around 5am and left for the hospital around 6.  We were there by 7 and by 8:30 they were prepping me for the C-Section.

All went well...even the ever so painful spinal tap.  But once the meds kicked in was a walk in the park.  Kobi was born at 9:54am and shortly after I was waiting for them to finish tying my tubes. 

((I can't remember if I told you guys or not but that was our final decision.  NO MORE BABIES....at least none coming out of me.))

I was in my suite by 12 and they sent me home on Sunday May 16th.

Since then I've spent my time doing the usual.  Tending to a recently circumsized penis, getting peed, pooped and spitup on.  Changing diapers and waking up every 2 hrs to put my nipples through more trauma than they should have to bare.

He is a very easy baby.  All he wants is to be fed...ON TIME.  I had to learn the hard way that he also hates to be changed before or after a feeding so I have to change him in between switching boobs.

We are still getting used to having a new person around here.  Lael has been a big help.  She holds him everyday and has recently fed him from a bottle.

D hasn't had much time with him but she will be here for summer break so I'll be sure to teach her how to change a diaper or two.

Hubby is giddy.  He stares at him mostly.  Poking at him like he's a pet.  All I can do is giggle.

I can't believe it's been 4 weeks.  He was 7lbs 11oz when born and 7lbs 5oz when we left the hospital.  I took him back for his 2 week checkup and he was already 9lbs.  I think it's safe to say he will be one of those adorable, make you want to nibble on their cheeks, chubby babies.

As I sit here typing he is laying on my chest but it still doesn't feel real.  I feel like I'm babysitting.  I'm not sure when I will get used to him.

His is all sorts of awesome. 

Here are a few pictures of the last few weeks.....

Everything I Hoped He Would Be

Introducing Kobi Dean......

Born May 14, 2010 @ 0954am

7lbs 11oz 20inches

He basically got dropped off from heaven.....

Mommy's tired so more to come soon.

All I Can Do Now Is Wait

It's almost midnight so I'll just pretend it's Friday already.

I currently look like this:

Yes my friends.  You wanted to see pregnant.  I'm pregnant.  No more cut belly.  Just the really huge one. Really huge.

I don't know what time my surgery will be.  I just know that I can't sleep.

I've been told to call between 4 and 5 for them to tell me what time in the morning to come.  Of course my alarm is set for 4 though I doubt I will need the clock to wake me.

I know it's not a big deal to most.  Women get pregnant all the time.  Babies are born all the time.

But if every mother loved their children the way I love mine, the world would be AWESOME.

I love my boy.  I loved him before I knew him. 

Lael is super excited. She asked me if we would bring Bubby home by Tuesday.  I told her as long as he was healthy we should.

She gave a fist pump followed by a "yesssss" and then proceeded to ask if I she could take him in for Show and Share on Tuesday. 

That girl tickles me.

Well I'm sitting here on my bed.  My suitcase opened and mostly packed...all I need to put in there now is my Notebook that I'm currently using to type this.

Wish me luck my friends.

I will post pictures as soon as I can because we all know once he's born yall will not longer care about me.

It will be all about this bundle I am about to hold, and cuddle, and smell.

Oh I can smell him already..............