I was 21 years old. I had been in the Air Force for 3 ½ years. I had been with my 27 year old boyfriend for 2 ½ years. We loved each other.
We had been through so much together in such a short amount of time. He decided to propose. Well the best way he knew how.
Hiding a ring in the linen closet when I hate doing laundry and NEVER put it away wasn’t the brightest idea. But I found it. We celebrated. We were just beginning our lives together.
Still 21. No period. No big deal. Sometimes I was late because I exercised so much. Few weeks later still no period. Doctors decided to draw blood just to be sure. I had been on birth control for almost 4 years straight.
Hanging with a neighbor my cell phone rang. Congratulations……is all I heard. I hung up on them. Dear lord please be joking. I cannot be pregnant. I can barely take care of myself.
Too bad. When you pretend to be an adult, adult situations get thrown upon you. Fiance’ is excited. He is already a father to 1 so he’s happy to be a father to OUR child.
The next day. I head down the road to mom’s house. I am nervous. I’m not sure how they will take it. My dad comments about me gaining weight and jokes that I’m pregnant. I don’t laugh back. They stop and stare at me. The yelling begins. The tears fall. I feel ashamed and dirty.
Options are thrown at me. Abortion. Adoption. I will take none. I brought this baby into this situation and will deal with it the right way.
22 days after my 22nd birthday she is born. Everyone’s opinions vanish. This little girl has commanded all the attention. She has brought peace to a stressful and ugly situation.
For almost 6 years she has been the light of everyone’s life. God brought her into our lives for reasons we will never quite grasp.
I am pregnant again. I call mom. She almost runs the car off the road in excitement. Mother-in-law is already planning a baby shower. Husband is wishing it were a boy.
No shame. No yelling. Tears of course, but ALL happy tears.
I will bring another life into this world. I am ready this time. I am prepared.
Bring. It. On.
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