8 Months

This is my belly as of 6:45 this morning.  It may or may not grow by the end of the day.  That's how it rolls.

As of Saturday I am in my 8th month.  Like for real.

Like I'm about to have another kid.  Like who let this happen? And why so fast?

Some days I can't wait for time to fly by and other's I can't figure out how they flew by so quickly.

I'm wierd like that thanksforasking.

My mood fluxuates between scared, to excited, to nervous, to anxious.

I spent a lot of time with Lael this weekend and I found myself getting sad.

Am I doing the right thing by giving her a sibling.  She has seemed more attached to me these days.

Will she be super jealous or will she fall right into the big sibling role?

What have I done!

She is really excited now but we all know how kids are.  They are all excited for their shiny new toys until they realize they have to clean them up.  Then, not so much.

It's times like these you need your friends and family to reassure you.

I have my friends but as far as family I'm still on the short end.

I know I told you guys about my situation with my mom.  But did I tell you she went to see Lael at school last week.  Yeah.  And did I tell you she had the nerve to pass a message through my child to me.

"Nana told me to tell you that she loves you."  I have no words for that.  Seriously.  I'm speechless.

I am totally not ready for Bubby.  I mean I DO have a carseat and I DO have a stroller and I DO have his bassinett and a few clothes.

Sure as hell hope these "friends" of mine come through at this baby shower because I need stuff. You know like diapers and wipes.

I guess I better get on the ball.

Oh well.

Happy Monday!