A New Challenge

So once again we had D for part of the summer. She's been here since June 11th. OMGsh she has been the biggest helper. She quick and willing to damn near breastfeed Kobi.

The problem? I forget about Lael.

I don't mean I forget her but I forget that it was her that watched my tummy grow everyday and all she talked about was being able to help with her brother.

Last night I lay in bed and Lael comes in my room. She starts crying and I had no clue what the problem was.

Apparently I've been overlooking her in the helper area. She told me how I gave her diaper job away to D (one that was hers tje first 3 weeks of his life). She said that I always ask D to help me and never her.

She's right. Just because D is quicker and older doesn't make it right.

D will be going home next week and then it will be Lael and Kobi again. She will be my only helper until Aug.

The challenge: Keeping them both involved without any hurt feelings.

Fun times are ahead.

A New Life

This is my new life. Diapers, spit-up, sleep deprivation. And you know what I wouldn't trade it for the world. Just this morning I fed and burped Kobi and what came next made me cry. He stared up at me. And then his eyes squinted and his mouth curled up to the most beautiful smile I've seen. A simple smile.
For a working outside the home mom, 6 weeks ain't shit. If I didn't take more leave days I would be sitting at work today. The thought makes me feel sick. I have 5 more weeks and I will make the best of them. Right now my laptop has a virus so I can't upload pics but you can find them on my Twitter account. For nowi will be enjoying my new life. I once worried that my heart wouldn't be big enough to make room for another child. I now know that the heart doesn't make room, it simply grows bigger. And my bigger heart is full. For now.

The Last 4 Weeks.....

.....have gone by in a flash.

I've missed you guys. I don't know where to begin.

Well....to back things up a bit.  Me and hubby got up on May 14th around 5am and left for the hospital around 6.  We were there by 7 and by 8:30 they were prepping me for the C-Section.

All went well...even the ever so painful spinal tap.  But once the meds kicked in was a walk in the park.  Kobi was born at 9:54am and shortly after I was waiting for them to finish tying my tubes. 

((I can't remember if I told you guys or not but that was our final decision.  NO MORE BABIES....at least none coming out of me.))

I was in my suite by 12 and they sent me home on Sunday May 16th.

Since then I've spent my time doing the usual.  Tending to a recently circumsized penis, getting peed, pooped and spitup on.  Changing diapers and waking up every 2 hrs to put my nipples through more trauma than they should have to bare.

He is a very easy baby.  All he wants is to be fed...ON TIME.  I had to learn the hard way that he also hates to be changed before or after a feeding so I have to change him in between switching boobs.

We are still getting used to having a new person around here.  Lael has been a big help.  She holds him everyday and has recently fed him from a bottle.

D hasn't had much time with him but she will be here for summer break so I'll be sure to teach her how to change a diaper or two.

Hubby is giddy.  He stares at him mostly.  Poking at him like he's a pet.  All I can do is giggle.

I can't believe it's been 4 weeks.  He was 7lbs 11oz when born and 7lbs 5oz when we left the hospital.  I took him back for his 2 week checkup and he was already 9lbs.  I think it's safe to say he will be one of those adorable, make you want to nibble on their cheeks, chubby babies.

As I sit here typing he is laying on my chest but it still doesn't feel real.  I feel like I'm babysitting.  I'm not sure when I will get used to him.

His is all sorts of awesome. 

Here are a few pictures of the last few weeks.....