Tuesday, May 27, 2008


So I have a new friend who has been more than great to me. She has one of the most BEAUTIFUL gardens in our neighborhood. I love to walk to her house and listen to her tell me all about the pretty flowers and plants that she has. She recently got really excited after finding a nursery nearby and talked about the great deals she got. She always said that her garden was overflowing and that one day she would split some of the plants and help me and my daughter start our own garden.

My garden on the other hand is a dry barren. No flower just weeds and dirt and occasionally a sprinkle of mulch. I have a green thumb, I just have no energy to use it. So last Friday I am away from home and my friend gives me a call. I tell her I'm not home but I'll give her a call when I return. I wonder on the drive home if she's made some type of yummy desert and she's willing to share (somehow she's turned into my soup kitchen). But to my surprise when I pull up she is standing in the middle of my garden with a shovel making friends with my dirt patch. Girlfriend had her husband help her carry over all these plants of hers that she split and she had proceeded to plant me a garden (hoping to finish before I returned). I could not have been more excited.

So I ended up helping her finish the rest of the planting and my daughter decided to join in. She wanted to help dig the holes and couldn't wait to water them. She then remembered that we had some seeds in the house (not that I had bought any). I tried to argue with her but she was completley sure that we had seeds to plant. I let her go and was curious to see what she would bring back. Then out she comes with my Ziploc bag full of....sunflower seeds! We just giggled, how would she know any better, she's 4. Well we decided to let her plant a few just to see...you never know.

Because sunflower seeds should produce sunflowers right??

Friday, May 16, 2008

Why I'm Here

So the past few weeks, especially yesterday have been really trying for me. Between work and home I have wanted to seriously run away. I know being a working mom isn't supposed to be easy but I really had no idea how much work it can really be. My job is taking alot out of me and I have no patience by the time I get home. I don't mean to bring my problems home with me but it's hard to turn your emotions on and off like a light switch. Sometimes I wonder why I'm here and why I'm doing this but then I wake up this morning after tossing all night and La had crawled in bed with me to get a few more hours of sleep. I watch her sleeping and my chest swells with love. How is it possible to love this little person with all my being? She starts to wake up and the first thing she says is "Mommy, your the best and I love you." That sums it all up. That's why I go to work, that is what I what I want to come home to. I know God has put her in my life for a reason. I am responsible for raising this little person and putting her in the world with morals and values. I know I must be doing something right because she is such a loving child.

I am reminded why I am here......

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Groundhog Day

Why is it that I cant tell where one day ends and another begins? How young can someone be before they feel burntout. I love having been in the military but lately I have felt that my current job has driven me into the ground. I am one of the lowest ranking in my office with an EXTREMLEY huge responsibility. I have become so stressed that I am becoming a zombie. I don't have the energy to do anything when I get home to my family. I feel like I am slowly shrinking.

I need help, some type of fun or change to get me out of my rut!!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Tooth Loosey

Wheew! It's been a while but now that I have my laptop up and running, I can blog with a bit of privacy...

So while I have a lot of backstories to post I had to announce the day my 4.5 year old has been waiting on for MONTHS!!

So yesterday turned out to be a fun day. My daughter had a school performance based on the Spring weather and she played the role of "rain". She turned out to be beautiful rain as well as it being a rainy day. I went to work after the performance and got home a little late. Well when I did get home, my little actress was waiting for me with my Mother's Day present. While she was given STRICT instructions to wait until Sunday she could barely hold herself back from tearing open MY prestent which turned out to be a beautiful watercolor painting.

So backing it up...we were in a bit of a rush that morning so I brushed her teeth for her and didn't notice anything out of the norm. The past few weeks her 6yr old molars had finished coming in. When I had took her to the dentist a few months ago they suggested I bring her back in to get sealants put on and gave me a "by the way" I think her two bottom teeth are a little loose...well I didn't feel anything moving. Anyway...since hearing that that's all she ever talks about. So after she gives me my present she goes into the bathroom and comes out saying "Mommy I think my tooth is loosey (not loose, loosey), its hurting." So I start to go through my routine of shaking the tooth and telling her that it not loose yet and to give it more time, but I was shocked and surpised because when I wiggled it, the darn thing moved!

So I did my impromtu "La La has a loose tooth" song and dance which put her in a fit of giggles and almost making her wet herself. She's so excited though I don't think the poor tooth stands a chance. She is wiggling it every 5 seconds and I give it to next Friday before she has the thing out. She say her Fairy Godmother Tinkerbell (not the tooth fairy) is going to be happy and leaver her lots of money.

I sure hope that stimulus check gets here in time!