Preview of the Year

So La had a great second day of school. She came home a bit filthier than the day before which means she got "down and dirty".

Me: "So how was school today?"

Her: "Ummm (as she watches Spongebob with one eye and trying to look at me with the other) goooood"

Me: "Hey look at me, what did you do today?"

Her: "Play with Charlotte, we played girls not animals today."

Me: "Mmmm, that's good. What else?"

Her: "That's all I just played...oh but I got a pink card today."

Me: "Oh really, well what were you doing?"

Her: "Well just playing cats with our hands. Charlotte got me the pink card and I got her the pink card."

Great. In her school they have behavior cards. Here's the line up.

Green-Good Behavior

Pink-Warnings

Blue-Lose 15mins of recess

Yellow-Lose all recess and parent gets called

Last year, she pretty much got green cards but had an occasional pink but never on the second day of school.

Oh boy, is this a preview of how La is going to be in Kindergarten. I better warn my job that I may have a few extra parent-teacher conferences than the previous year.

Wish me luck......

Kindergartner's Ride the Bus

So today was La's first day of Kindergarten. Last year she went to all day Pre-K and it was great but she wasn't yet old enough to ride the school bus. This year however, is a different story. For a few weeks she has been excited about riding the bus. We had to go to get her a bus pass (she calls it her drivers license) to attach to her backpack in order to ride the bus from on base to her school. I am pumping her up and preparing her for this big day but in reality I am preparing myself. Am I the only one TERRIFIED to sending their 4yr old princess on a big yellow bus full of other germy kids and in the hands of a driver I have never met?!?! I did really good all morning. Showered, fed her breafast, got her dressed and walked to the bus stop. We waited a few minutes and my heart started to race faster and my throat began to close up. A few buses passed but as each one approaced I held my breath. Finally the magic bus appeared. Who's the first one to run up to the open doors? My angel. The bus driver greets her.

Him: "Good Morning, what school do you go to?"

Her: "Kindergarten"


Great. I'm sure he's going to make her get off because if she can't remember the name of her school surely she isn't worthy enough to ride the bus. Well he asks to see her bus pass and she shows him and then bounces to the back of the bus. No goodbye, she didn't even look back. What was I to do...turn to my husband and cry like someone stole my candy. Oh I mean not a few tears but the "ugly cry". Well the bus pulls off and we proceed to drive ahead to the school because I am just positive the bus will get lost trying to find my baby's school. Well all ended well and I had a super happy kid...for now. Me however, I'm not sure I'll ever get used to the idea of my little girl growing up.

Sunflower...seeds?

So I have a new friend who has been more than great to me. She has one of the most BEAUTIFUL gardens in our neighborhood. I love to walk to her house and listen to her tell me all about the pretty flowers and plants that she has. She recently got really excited after finding a nursery nearby and talked about the great deals she got. She always said that her garden was overflowing and that one day she would split some of the plants and help me and my daughter start our own garden.

My garden on the other hand is a dry barren. No flower just weeds and dirt and occasionally a sprinkle of mulch. I have a green thumb, I just have no energy to use it. So last Friday I am away from home and my friend gives me a call. I tell her I'm not home but I'll give her a call when I return. I wonder on the drive home if she's made some type of yummy desert and she's willing to share (somehow she's turned into my soup kitchen). But to my surprise when I pull up she is standing in the middle of my garden with a shovel making friends with my dirt patch. Girlfriend had her husband help her carry over all these plants of hers that she split and she had proceeded to plant me a garden (hoping to finish before I returned). I could not have been more excited.

So I ended up helping her finish the rest of the planting and my daughter decided to join in. She wanted to help dig the holes and couldn't wait to water them. She then remembered that we had some seeds in the house (not that I had bought any). I tried to argue with her but she was completley sure that we had seeds to plant. I let her go and was curious to see what she would bring back. Then out she comes with my Ziploc bag full of....sunflower seeds! We just giggled, how would she know any better, she's 4. Well we decided to let her plant a few just to see...you never know.

Because sunflower seeds should produce sunflowers right??

Why I'm Here

So the past few weeks, especially yesterday have been really trying for me. Between work and home I have wanted to seriously run away. I know being a working mom isn't supposed to be easy but I really had no idea how much work it can really be. My job is taking alot out of me and I have no patience by the time I get home. I don't mean to bring my problems home with me but it's hard to turn your emotions on and off like a light switch. Sometimes I wonder why I'm here and why I'm doing this but then I wake up this morning after tossing all night and La had crawled in bed with me to get a few more hours of sleep. I watch her sleeping and my chest swells with love. How is it possible to love this little person with all my being? She starts to wake up and the first thing she says is "Mommy, your the best and I love you." That sums it all up. That's why I go to work, that is what I what I want to come home to. I know God has put her in my life for a reason. I am responsible for raising this little person and putting her in the world with morals and values. I know I must be doing something right because she is such a loving child.

I am reminded why I am here......

Groundhog Day

Why is it that I cant tell where one day ends and another begins? How young can someone be before they feel burntout. I love having been in the military but lately I have felt that my current job has driven me into the ground. I am one of the lowest ranking in my office with an EXTREMLEY huge responsibility. I have become so stressed that I am becoming a zombie. I don't have the energy to do anything when I get home to my family. I feel like I am slowly shrinking.

I need help, some type of fun or change to get me out of my rut!!

Tooth Loosey

Wheew! It's been a while but now that I have my laptop up and running, I can blog with a bit of privacy...

So while I have a lot of backstories to post I had to announce the day my 4.5 year old has been waiting on for MONTHS!!

So yesterday turned out to be a fun day. My daughter had a school performance based on the Spring weather and she played the role of "rain". She turned out to be beautiful rain as well as it being a rainy day. I went to work after the performance and got home a little late. Well when I did get home, my little actress was waiting for me with my Mother's Day present. While she was given STRICT instructions to wait until Sunday she could barely hold herself back from tearing open MY prestent which turned out to be a beautiful watercolor painting.

So backing it up...we were in a bit of a rush that morning so I brushed her teeth for her and didn't notice anything out of the norm. The past few weeks her 6yr old molars had finished coming in. When I had took her to the dentist a few months ago they suggested I bring her back in to get sealants put on and gave me a "by the way" I think her two bottom teeth are a little loose...well I didn't feel anything moving. Anyway...since hearing that that's all she ever talks about. So after she gives me my present she goes into the bathroom and comes out saying "Mommy I think my tooth is loosey (not loose, loosey), its hurting." So I start to go through my routine of shaking the tooth and telling her that it not loose yet and to give it more time, but I was shocked and surpised because when I wiggled it, the darn thing moved!

So I did my impromtu "La La has a loose tooth" song and dance which put her in a fit of giggles and almost making her wet herself. She's so excited though I don't think the poor tooth stands a chance. She is wiggling it every 5 seconds and I give it to next Friday before she has the thing out. She say her Fairy Godmother Tinkerbell (not the tooth fairy) is going to be happy and leaver her lots of money.

I sure hope that stimulus check gets here in time!

Flattered

So I have never been one that's against gays or lesbians. I think it is everyone's personal choice on what type of sexuality they want to be involved with. However, I am usually able to tell if someone is Gay and I am sure that they are able to tell as well. This being said, I'm at work today and there is this girl in here working on our computers. I say hello and smile because I am polite but I'm afraid that was my first mistake. A few minutes later she walks up behind me and just starts talking. No hello my name is...but full out just talking like we know each other. I smile again and respond but try to show her that I am busy and need to get back to work. Problem soloved...nope. Ten minutes later she's finds me again and I'm not just sitting at my desk but walking around trying to get stuff done. At this point I have picked up on the "I"m a lesbian" vibe, which is cool, but I'm sure it's pretty obvious that I am not. I manage to shake here once again and walk back to my desk to grab my bowl and wash it out. Oh but guess who finds me and decides to walk all the way out of my office, down the hall and follow me to the ladies room still trying to hold on a conversation! LEAVE ME ALONE !!! That's what I'm thinking but I continue to be nice but I'm quickly getting annoyed. She leave and I get back to my desk and think wow, I'm glad that's over but I continue to jump to conclusion. This time she corners me at my desk, proceeds to lean on it and just open up her life story to me. SERIOUSLY. She stands there for a good 15 minutes telling me many things I don't care to know and I smile and nod and make inputs when necessary. Meanwhile, my co-workers are walking pass my desk giggling because they are well aware of what's going on. Why me?? She still in the office so I'm sure it's not over yet. Wow it's going to be a long day, I'm flattered, really...but no thanks.

Oh yeay!! She just left but not before shaking my hand and giving me a wink!! You've got to be kidding me...