I'll Never Leave You Alone

I'm going back to work tomorrow. It's been a long 4 days. I thought Lael would be better by now but she is still feverish and still has gunk coming out of her eyes.

She is really good for a few hours and I think she's back to normal and then she sits down and gets this look on her face that reminds me of myself after a few drinks. Her eyes turn red again and then she's back on the sick train.

I don't know if she'll be well enough to go back to school tomorrow but daddy is here if she needs to say home.

She went without a nap today and her temp only got up to 102, yeah, only. She played with her toys, watched a few movies and I thought all was well. She's still not eating and it has really gotten to me. Today she had a few sips of my Starbucks Apple Chi, half a package of My Little Pony Fruit Snacks (thanks Carlota), 3 bites (tiny) of a bowl of Ramen Noodles, and 1 1/2 Thin Mints. That's all I could get down her throat. All of that together doesn't equal 1 meal. *sigh*

I decided to let her have a nice long bath around 6:30. She slashed and giggled and had a great time. I went downstairs to switch the laundry. She was still enjoying her bath. I come back upstairs and hear her crying hysterically.

I found her standing in her bedroom naked, shivering and crying her little heart out. Apparently right after I went downstairs she decided to get out of the tub. I guess she called out for me to bring her a towel but I didn't hear her.

I asked her why she didn't come downstairs to get me and she said because she was freezing to death. I felt horrible. I quickly wrapped her in a warm towel and cradled her until she calmed down. I wiped the gunk that was running down her cheeks and whispered in her ear to calm her.

I dressed her in warm pj's and wrapped her in a blanket and sat her on my lap. She kept repeating that she thought that I had left her and that I should never leave her again and that I can't go far away so that I can hear her. My poor child. I promised I wouldn't let it happen again. And you best believe I'll try my best.