Every year for the past 5 years I have been putting myself under stress.
I have not figured out exactly when to start Christmas shopping and it seems like I can't seem to get it right.
I think I have more than enough time but look there are only like 40 days left!
In addition to that, I have a dysfunctional family. I'm sure everybody things their family is wacky but I promise my family takes the cake.
Because of the funkiness, I usually have to split myself up between my mom's house and my in-laws house.
Some years I have wanted to break down and cry. It seems like I can't get them under one roof for any holiday except for Lael's birthday and even then things are tense.
My dear mother-in-law has always tried to make things easier on me and has decided that she will have Thanksgiving at her house and has even invited a few of my military families over who aren't near their extended family. She decided that she would not do Christmas so that I could spend it with my parents instead of driving up and down the road.
This seems like a good idea but I am stressed wondering how my mother would react to a Thanksgiving without me even if that means having me for Christmas.
I feel like a kid going through some wacky custody battle. There is so much to deal with during the holidays and I am a HUGE fan of Christmas. It is my favorite besides my daughter's birthday of course.
Why can't things be like it is in the movies? Why can't we be just one big happy family? Why is it that I seem to be the only one that is forgiving and can move on? Is it that impossible to get along with each other for a few hours once a year?
Apparently so. What to do, what to do? I guess as the time gets closer I will decide what I'm going to do.
What's scary is I'm always afraid that my decision will hurt someones feeling. But what about mine?
A silent devotion
9 hours ago